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Leap of Faith
Congratulations to Mr. and Mrs. Chris and Celina Sanchez. They got married this past Saturday and it was a beautiful ceremony. My sister looked like a princess in her dress. Chris you better remember that you’re a lucky man. I am really happy for both of you and I pray that God blesses your marriage above and beyond anything you can imagine.
It’s been a loooooonnnngggg week. Family and friends being here for the wedding and moving my sister and getting ready to move myself, I haven’t even had time to breathe. But, I finally caught up on a little sleep yesterday so I’ll be alright. Being as busy as I’ve been, I decided to share a little something I wrote a while back for the column this week. It’s a letter I wrote to God.
“It seems like I haven’t wrote in a long time. Yeah, I write a column every week for the website, but more than just that. I used to write to You all the time, God. When I couldn’t pray, I’d write. When I was hurting and didn’t know what to do, I’d write. When I was full of joy and moving in Your calling, I’d write. Now it seems like I only write when I have to. I used to write songs and poems all the time. Now it practically takes Chris to beg me to write a verse for a song.
God, now more than ever, I need You. I’m struggling, but I’m afraid to let anyone know that I am. I’m supposed to be the one that people look up to and go to for advice. I’m supposed to be that mature Christian who knows how to trust in You and seek Your face. I’m supposed to be a worship leader, but I don’t even take my guitar to Bible Study anymore because “it’s an inconvenience.”
I’m dying inside God. I need a breath of fresh air. I need You to reinvigorate me. I need you to breathe life into me again. I can keep on acting like I have it all together and continue to fall deeper and deeper into this mess or I can come to You right now and ask You to change me.
That’s where I am tonight. I’m on the edge of the cliff trying to hold on to my own ways. I’m trying to keep both my feet planted on my own security, when all along You’re asking me to jump and trust that You’ll catch me. Sure, I’ll lift one leg and hold it over the edge from time to time, but I keep holding on to these things I know I need to let go of.
You’re calling me to another level. I know You’re going to do great things through me, not because I’m anything special, but because You choose the foolish things (me) of this world to confound the wise. But, I know that it takes a leap of faith to get where You want to take me. You’re asking that I put my total trust in You. You’re saying, “geno, trust in Me and I will fulfill all your needs. I will provide everything you need to accomplish the task that is set before you.”
So here I am God, at this ledge, still not sure if I want to take that risk. Here I am God, not for the first time, because I’ve been here before. The last time I turned and ran for what I thought was more secure ground and it’s taken me awhile to get back to this spot again. I could’ve avoided a lot of pain and troubles and heartaches if I would’ve jumped before. But here I am once again. Can you give me a little shove?”
I wrote that letter a little while back and it was at a time when God was challenging me to take that “Leap of Faith” and trust more in Him. It’s when you’re open and honest with God that He’s able to give you direction. He didn’t give me the exact plan of how things were going to turn out, but He reminded me that He would work things out if I put my trust in Him.
Proverbs 3:5-6, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
w/muchluv,
geno
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